Left, middle, right

Ughhh. I must find the balance. There is what Cody called my conscience, which I call God, and there's my own will power. They are playing a nice game of cat and mouse. Or Ring a Ring of Roses.

It could be that we are here, in this life, going through all of our prostrations, our interactions, our intricate decisions, and when it's all done, we go back to God. We were with God before all of this silliness, and we will be returned to sender afterwards. It's funny all of the efforts put towards the Life we're living. Is it silly? Should we try to keep it in perspective? Should we be so damn worried about death?

It's kind of backwards. It should be the before- and after-lives that are of note. Or at least have some significance. That's so un-atheistic of me, I know. Atheists must really only value the life they're involved in. But it's interesting to consider the frivolousness of it. Spinning our wheels. It seems that God helps slow the nonsensical spinning down.

We get into trouble. Putting so much emphasis on the daily ups and downs of our living lives distracts us from what's important. Really, this life is not so, so great, and it's not so, so terrible. It's these exaggerations that get all of us into trouble.

The easiest way is not to micro-manage our daily struggles and tasks, but try to keep the God perspective. How do we do that? Ask God for help and guidance. Maybe he'll even answer one of these days. Keep your ear open.